how to out live hell

I go to hell everyday
I sleep and eat there.
I have to see devil ach minute of my life
I am his servant and daughter
my days are eternal tortures
of an unfounded fundamentalism and morality.
my dreams become nightmares
my days turn into darkness
my happiness into sadness
Yet, I go on by now.
But,
my days are counted there
I believe in heaven or at least in the purgatory
I think better than hell.
I believe i have had enough for all this.
I have payed and more for my mistakes if I have some.
I want to depart
to be loved and respected
that's all I want.
Peace.
years have passed I believe invencible!
pacience has made its best on me.