Silence in my soul

Have you forgot all sense of place and duty?
My conscience once said
I am ashamed of myself.
I can not write good things
not those what the Master wants.
He is cool and reserved
but I don't know what to do to improve
my reading and writing skills.
Very well then ,I thought, I am not drunk now;
I am only insane
I can speak well, well enough may I say
but my writing skills sucks even till yesterday.
May I fell unworthy of my place after ten years of martyrdom
I try to reborn again.
may I complete my task on earth?
I bleed still
I am hurt to death...
ah..and don't post commentaries about my mental health